The Perfect Song haaaay

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, dont patronize - dont patronize me

Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont

Ill close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you dont feel when youre holding me
Morning will come and Ill do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont

Waiting in vain...

Ange tayong dalawa pa lang nagpopost dito...ibig sabihin ang dami nating issues ahahaha! Anyway ako naman...

After talking to Claire yesterday about letting go of and detaching myself from him because there's really something wrong going on....Nag hangout na naman ako with him...

Well actually may plan na talaga na labas kami for lunch and buy dvds. So baba ako sa apartment niya. He was playing with his new laptop when I got there. Tas upo ako sa tabi niya tas naki-usi...tas he suddenly pulled me and kissed me on the cheeks. Tas he said "I love you..bes" na naman. Haaaay since I still have feelings for him....kinilig na naman ako...actually ndi kilig yung term..more on naconfuse na naman ako. So ok kain na kami...tas while eating he suddenly said (I swear out of the blue talaga)..."I dont see myself getting married in 5 years". Tas sabi ko "huh bakit naman? Ikaw pa eh lagi mo sinasabi sa akin dati na gusto mo na magasawa". He said "hindi noh joke lang yun...feeling ko hindi pa ako ready sa responsibilities of marriage." Tas sabi ko "Haaay nakuu narinig ko na rin yan dati (referring to when he said he's not ready to have a gf tas nagkagf na rin naman pla)..hindi na ako naniniwala". Tas sabi niya "iba yun noh..ang gf pwede iluwa ang asawa ndi (referring to the old saying na ang kasal ay ndi mainit na kanin na pwedeng iluwa lol)". So sabi ko "well ako rin naman hindi pa ready...gusto ko pa mag-aral abroad and travel the world before I get married". Tas tumahimik siya and suddenly changed the topic. Weird di ba? Maybe im just reading to much into it..pero kasi everytime he sees me surfing for universities..he'd always say "mukhang seryoso ka talaga diyan ah"...tas sabay hug sa akin tas kiss sa akin either sa forehead or cheeks. I get the feeling na he doesnt want me to leave or something. Ewan ko ba ...

So now I realized na love ko talaga siya...na I'm willing to wait for him...i'll just leave it up to fate/time kung mapagod man ako and eventually let go....haaaay girls help me

Are you just a habit or some kind of addiction?

Haaaay gals...I don't know if I'm just a martyr or a masochist...i still love him =(. Even if we agreed to be bestfriends...it still hurts everytime he speaks about his gf...and it doesn't help that he's still touchy sweet to me. I know that moving away from him is the best solution..but I dont think I can do it...especially since you guys are so far away =(. Need support waaaaah =(. Plan ko is just to start detaching myself from him when we're back in Manila na. And i won't tell him that I'm leaving him...i'll just do it =(. It hurts waaaaah...that's why I want to go home na =(. Help!

Hello!

Hi guys,
At last we have our own blog! After 5 years of planning...we finally have one! =) Hope we can use this as a way to always keep in touch with each other....even if we're continents apart! =)

Miss you guys!!!