Are you just a habit or some kind of addiction?

Haaaay gals...I don't know if I'm just a martyr or a masochist...i still love him =(. Even if we agreed to be bestfriends...it still hurts everytime he speaks about his gf...and it doesn't help that he's still touchy sweet to me. I know that moving away from him is the best solution..but I dont think I can do it...especially since you guys are so far away =(. Need support waaaaah =(. Plan ko is just to start detaching myself from him when we're back in Manila na. And i won't tell him that I'm leaving him...i'll just do it =(. It hurts waaaaah...that's why I want to go home na =(. Help!